Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Am I That Busy

I thought joining several group associations would be great to contribute something to society. I even made a list of seven favorite ones which I would like to join. I only had two groups and I was already feeling overwhelmed and preoccupied. 

I probably forgot that I have tasks and responsibilities at home. It's just as busy as those going out to work waking up early in the morning and come back home at 6 p.m. I get up at 3:30 a.m. to begin my task as a person of the house and will be the last one retiring to bed. Sadly I have to say no to the other group I used to be in. I can only focus on one charity group which needs me the most—apart from that, being a homemaker and at the same time an aspiring writer who does a lot of research and studies. Not to mention fulfilling some requests for music and video. 

Am still having 63 more lectures to listen or 42 more hours to go and more to come: hundreds and thousands of pages to write. It's a calling to write which I can't simply ignore. It's the last thing I want to do on earth. 

Sunday, August 12, 2018

Bring It To Life

There were suggestions that I should try to go for crowdfunding or money pull for my writing, music and art projects. I'm incorporating all into one theme of work. I'm really not sure of the response but I'll give it a thought. I would love to hear some opinions and advice 😊

Saturday, July 21, 2018

The Legacy

Two months have gone ...? Oh well. I've been extremely occupied with works and self-studies. The result is awesome. I covered a lot of things in a few months more than I did when I took a degree in the campus for years. I'm quite content and proud of the achievement. I hope to see the awards coming in the very near future. As excited as I am, I'm aware that life is short no matter how long we're going to live. But each day spent in working on my legacy for the future generations, especially for those where I came from, is so worth it. I would like to cover everything that I'm working on right now but as time is very limited for me at the moment, I'll talk a little bit about it here to focus more on my writing, music and media projects. Back to my epic ...

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Fruitful Silence

It has been a month of silence here. It's because I'm enjoying traveling within my own epic story writing. My heart is restless until it's done. I need to focus on it each day. I have made it my priority. So, I just let go other things that are less important. I admit I'm quite a slow writer for being a perfectionist. But at the same time, I will accept my own limitations and be satisfied with the outcome. Till it's done ... 

Monday, April 16, 2018

Gratitude and Showers of Blessings

I just finished setting up my workspace and I hope to be more consistent in updating my sites and pages. This time I have better and well organized desk. I should be able to work more peacefully. Even though it's just a small space with few items, I've arranged it in a way that almost everything is reachable whenever I need something. I'm quite excited to continue pursuing the works of music and media which I have started almost two years ago, so often delayed by other activities and programs. The one thing I've learnt from past experiences is that to be always grateful. Grateful for having the moments to learn and create things. It's not so much about getting quickly into the end result but to appreciate every moment that I have and be thankful about it and just live a simple life showered with many blessings. 

Sunday, January 28, 2018

New Year 2018

I'm back again after a long break for about 3 months. I was away in my homeland Sabah. Guess, with all the festive programmes of Christmas and family gatherings there was very little chance for me to get online. More so with internet wifi having network problem. Most of the time it happened due to rainy seasons often accompanied by frightening thunder & lightning. Apart from that, I had been very busy rearranging our family house. It was a huge work. I got rid a lot of things from the house, sent some to recycle center & donated others. I managed to minimize my items to 12 smaller container boxes. I felt so relieved & lighter. Finally, I was able to get rid a lot of things which I didn't really need. Still, I'm hoping that one day I could reduce them to just 5 boxes. 

This year my resolution will be simpler & I'll go more casual. I used to write like I was writing for a newsletter or newspaper because I was concern about my students. They wanted to learn English for their exams. Now that I'm no longer with them, I prefer to be more direct & precise. I will deal with my own imperfections & limitations easily. I guess part of this is about the aging process. As we age day by day, we should learn how to let go of things especially those which challenge our patience. I don't want to grow old being cranky or depending on tranquilizer pills. I always believe in spending some quiet moments of silence to have peace of mind & heart. Decluttering helps me to relax my mind. Being positive helps me to do the right thing. I'm sure everybody wants the freedom to move freely and the best way is to let go of things. 

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Dividing My Time

It took me about three weeks to do the 7 minutes video recapture of our cultural gathering. 
I had been juggling between some projects and personal duties. I’ve never been so occupied like this before. I’m in total control of my own time. I have no one to ask me what to do. While making music and videos is very much time consuming, you just don’t want to be interrupted. But, there are times interruptions do help to make us less selfish. So, I won’t say that I’m working too hard on one particular project but I’m trying to make time for every other important thing in life. I need to divide my time for others and myself. A good sleep and rest definitely has to be in the daily schedule. I do admit that I sometimes disobey this little rule like forcing myself through the night checking on the computer or cellphone. How important it is to listen to our body and senses. I shouldn’t go beyond the red light!!